FFS it’s on my business card.
I’m slowly but surely taking activist off the list, because as little as I did before, I’m doing less now and the term should be devoted to people in the fight, not those on the sidelines.
Where I firmly am.
Maybe forever, but definitely for now. The gun stuff, I can confidently say I was an activist — not just talking the talk, but also lobbying locally, statewide, and even knocking on the doors of the biggies in Congress. I made the calls, wrote the emails, spoke publically, and repercussions were fast and furious. Hate mail, drive-bys, stalking, dirty looks — didn’t care.
Did the work anyway, despite kind people like the sample shared below.
I was a single-issue voter, when access to weapons of mass destruction mowed down classrooms of kids in my town. That was it for me, voting gun control (there, I said it) like (most) Catholics wave their pro-life banner to excuse their support for the rapist in chief.
But the issues are too numerous and the world just so crazy; most days it’s all I can do to keep doing. My activism has diminished over the past couple years, and using the term activist when I am no longer is disingenuous. And a lie.
Not because I don’t believe in the cause, because I do.
But activist I am not.
So I need to update my LinkedIn bio to observer instead of activist. Is there a better word?
Observer. Thinker. Watcher. Spectator. Reader. Bystander.
I feel like more of a bench player — ready to work if called to action. But even that is not true.
Because after years of doing the work, we’re surrounded by people who feel like it there Trump-given right not to wear a mask, even though hundreds of thousands are still dying. So even the emails seem futile. And phone calls self-sabotaging.
At least for me.
Some days are harder than others, but I personally find it’s all much easier to digest without the reminders of just how fucked we are.
So I’m removing activist from my resume; it’s not who I am.
Maybe it’s not who I ever was, but I tried.
I swear I did.
Now it feels like I’m doing nothing at all because that is exactly what I am doing. Nothing.
Maybe forever, but definitely for now.
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